My prayers were answered...we found out our application was accepted on my birthday! Sadly we also found out the little boy we hoped would be ours, who felt so much like ours is being adopted by another family. This was a massive blow, and so unexpected. I wept...and wept and then I rejoiced. I rejoiced knowing that this little boy whom I love is getting a family. It is more than bittersweet and for a moment or two...maybe even three I let it crush me. I let it steal my joy and my hope..but as I silently battled with God and I knew that feeling could not win. Milo ( the "name" of the little boy we thought would be ours) served an amazing purpose! He opened us up and kick started our adoption process!
With all of that being said...WE ARE STILL ADOPTING! We are not letting this stop us from rescuing a child. God set us on this path and we are going to keep following him down it. It may hurt for a while I am sure we will not fully get over Milo for a very very long time but on his behalf we are going to find the child God has for our family. We are still hoping for a child who is hearing impaired because its something so close to our hearts and we also hope the child is close to Griffin's age. So for those of you who have given us money it is still going towards a ransom of a child we just don't just don't know which one at this very moment. We are working with our case worker to look at more files and will hopefully know our child's name and face soon. We are still fundraising because the process hasn't gotten any less expensive and we are also hoping it hasn't gotten any longer. :) We still have hope :) God is still good :)
The loudest thing I heard from God today in our battle was this "I will not forsake you" I am clinging to that knowing that God has the best plan and it is even better than we could dream of. My friend Natalie spoke some serious truth over my life last night..."a step of faith isn't easy, if it were it wouldn't require faith." This road does not promise to be easy it never did, today was HARD and PAINFUL. But we are looking forward to tomorrow. Thank you all for your support. Please continue to pray for us.
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Friday, December 12, 2014
The waiting game...
I must admit we haven't been in the process for nearly as long as some families I know but it feels like we have. I feel like the moment I set eyes on our little boy he had been ours for a long time, and all that stands in our way is a few technicalities that can and will take several months.
For those of you who know me, probably know that patience is not a strong suit of mine. I am rather impatient. I have even avoided praying for patience at times knowing the only way to get them is to be tested and challenged and that idea freaked me out. BUT God is silly and here we are, in the process of something that has already caused us to grow in patience. Step #1 contact case worker...SURPRISE...she was on vacation for a WEEK. Step #2 get application and fill it out...DONE! Step #3 mail application...DONE (mail lady said should arrive on Monday or Tuesday)...Begin waiting....and waiting...and FRIDAY get a note from caseworker that application has arrived!! YAY! Now WAIT for approval which should come at the beginning of next week. PRAYERS PLEASE!
For some this seems like its not that long just a week or two, but imagine you are a child and all you want is a family and a home, a week or two is a long time to be added.
I just spoke with our caseworker and we are one of, if not the youngest couple she has worked with. This could work against us so I invite you to join us in prayer about this. We feel that this is the path God is leading us down and are pursuing it with our whole hearts. Please pray that the agency and the country we are working with will not mind our age :)
There is really not a whole lot more to update at this point. NEXT week should be a big week for us. I am praying so hard that I have GOOD news to share on my birthday. I cannot wait to sign a few more papers and finally be able to reveal his sweet face to all of you, you will probably fall in love just like us (that's seriously how sweet it is) and then I will say TOO BAD he is ours :)
In the meantime if you have any awesome fundraising ideas please feel free to pass them along to us, we are working on things and will not let a money stand in the way of redemption.
Now I will leave you with a verse:
PS Sorry if this sounds a little all over, I had to empty my brain so I could focus on some other things.
For those of you who know me, probably know that patience is not a strong suit of mine. I am rather impatient. I have even avoided praying for patience at times knowing the only way to get them is to be tested and challenged and that idea freaked me out. BUT God is silly and here we are, in the process of something that has already caused us to grow in patience. Step #1 contact case worker...SURPRISE...she was on vacation for a WEEK. Step #2 get application and fill it out...DONE! Step #3 mail application...DONE (mail lady said should arrive on Monday or Tuesday)...Begin waiting....and waiting...and FRIDAY get a note from caseworker that application has arrived!! YAY! Now WAIT for approval which should come at the beginning of next week. PRAYERS PLEASE!
For some this seems like its not that long just a week or two, but imagine you are a child and all you want is a family and a home, a week or two is a long time to be added.
I just spoke with our caseworker and we are one of, if not the youngest couple she has worked with. This could work against us so I invite you to join us in prayer about this. We feel that this is the path God is leading us down and are pursuing it with our whole hearts. Please pray that the agency and the country we are working with will not mind our age :)
There is really not a whole lot more to update at this point. NEXT week should be a big week for us. I am praying so hard that I have GOOD news to share on my birthday. I cannot wait to sign a few more papers and finally be able to reveal his sweet face to all of you, you will probably fall in love just like us (that's seriously how sweet it is) and then I will say TOO BAD he is ours :)
In the meantime if you have any awesome fundraising ideas please feel free to pass them along to us, we are working on things and will not let a money stand in the way of redemption.
Now I will leave you with a verse:
But when the fullness of time had come, God sent forth his Son, born of woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, so that we might receive adoption as sons.
Galatians 4:4-5 ESVPS Sorry if this sounds a little all over, I had to empty my brain so I could focus on some other things.
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Answering the why...
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about what people may have thought when we first shared our news.I am sure that there were probably many reactions and I am also sure one of those reactions was probably one of question the big "WHY?!" Why would a family who is able to have children adopt a child? Why would you want to do this?
My short answer is "why not?" why not provide a home for a child who so desperately longs for one? Why not bring a child who wants a family into a family like ours? Why not? That my friends is the short answer.
The longer answer is this, I have dreamed for a very long time that adoption would be part of my family structure, this dream was born out of seeing children on the streets and in orphanages who only want to belong and to have someone love them. I have felt called and compelled to be a voice for those children and I wasn't really sure what that would look like or when that dream would happen until recently.
The other part of the answer is because if my husband, Derek, were born in the country our little boy is in he would most likely be in an orphanage himself. With his heart and hearing issues he would almost certainly be considered worthless and be left by his family and this makes me crazy!! My husband is amazing and anything but worthless and there are many children who just need to be told this as well, to be given a chance in this world.
The little boy who we are pursuing is deaf and it is likely that this is the reason he is where he is and to me that is unacceptable, to me he should not be defined by his inabilities but his abilities. I cannot wait to show him how valued he really is.
We know that this will not be easy and we are so grateful for all the kind words that people have been sending us. We have the application in our possession and are quickly working to send that in this week so that we can be committed and share even more great news with you all.
Please keep us in your prayers.
My short answer is "why not?" why not provide a home for a child who so desperately longs for one? Why not bring a child who wants a family into a family like ours? Why not? That my friends is the short answer.
The longer answer is this, I have dreamed for a very long time that adoption would be part of my family structure, this dream was born out of seeing children on the streets and in orphanages who only want to belong and to have someone love them. I have felt called and compelled to be a voice for those children and I wasn't really sure what that would look like or when that dream would happen until recently.
The other part of the answer is because if my husband, Derek, were born in the country our little boy is in he would most likely be in an orphanage himself. With his heart and hearing issues he would almost certainly be considered worthless and be left by his family and this makes me crazy!! My husband is amazing and anything but worthless and there are many children who just need to be told this as well, to be given a chance in this world.
The little boy who we are pursuing is deaf and it is likely that this is the reason he is where he is and to me that is unacceptable, to me he should not be defined by his inabilities but his abilities. I cannot wait to show him how valued he really is.
We know that this will not be easy and we are so grateful for all the kind words that people have been sending us. We have the application in our possession and are quickly working to send that in this week so that we can be committed and share even more great news with you all.
Please keep us in your prayers.
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