Broken

It is with deep sadness and a broken heart that we have decided to stop our adoption process. Throughout this process we have hit some bumps all of which we embraced and gave praise for, this weekend as a family we hit a pretty large bump that made it evident we needed to work on somethings, before we could add another child to our lives. We are still praising God for this journey we have learned a lot, and I am brokenhearted that it has ended this way but we know it is ultimately what is best for out family and for Henry. As we work towards bettering our family and getting stronger we pray that a new family for Henry is found soon and that God will give him the best and happiest life imaginable. We did not go on this journey by accident and we believe that God has an amazing plan for us, it just wasn't what we had imagined it would be.

We want to thank all of you from the deepest part of our hearts for your support and love through this process. We understand that many of you donated towards this adoption and we could not have made it this far without you, the money in our FSP will remain with Henry it is not in our bank accounts or some stash some where it is with him and we hope that it will inspire a new family to see him and choose him quickly. Other donations were used for parts of the process such as our homestudy, and official documents, I again want to clarify it is not just in our pockets. We also realize some of you who made donations may want your money back, we respect this. If you do please email us derek.kaylee.benz@gmail.com and we will do our best to get that money and get it to you.

We are grateful for your prayers, and for those I have already talked to today for your understanding and love. This is a hard time and it was an unbelievably hard decision. Please continue to pray for us through this hard time. I feel like I have let a lot of people down, including sweet Henry. One of the hardest parts about ending this is how publicly it must be done but we have been committed to honesty and transparency so here we are, raw and broken and we will probably need a lot of love and grace in the upcoming weeks as our hearts heal.

It is my sincere hope that our journey though not the best example will have opened one person's eyes and hearts towards adoption. We hope that you will continue to wear our shirts and talk about orphans.

Thanks again. We love and appreciate all of you.